Now I wake up, check my email on my phone before I decide to get out of bed. Get up, get dressed. More times than not I turn on the computer and do my rounds {facebook, etsy, email, blog, etc, etc}. My routine goes on from there, to the point where I cannot do anything without finishing this cycle of checking EVERYTHING.
Something has to give. The internet has to give.
I want to throw the towel in with social media. Now if I'm unable to be on my computer I have my phone handy to re-check my email, get envious of what others have and are doing on instagram. Seriously this is what I've become?
If I'm a blogger because of the hits I'll get, if I'm only doing stuff for my kids and around my house to have the "Hey, look at me!" mentality, then I need to stop.
Maybe it's because it is summer. Maybe it's because my husband is working a full time job and going to school full time. Maybe it's because I can't even leave the room to pee without my toddler walking back and forth on the kitchen table. Maybe it is because God is trying to get my attention and a hold of my life telling me that HE has better and more glorious things for my life. I'm not sure. This feeling could pass come September, and I feel like a hypocrite.
But right now. Right now, all I know is that currently I'm not being faithful to God. This isn't being faithful to God. This isn't raising my children. This is distracting me from my children, from their childhood, from being a good mom.
The this that I'm referring to is facebook, instagram, blogging, twitter, pinterest {although it is the bookmarks for stuff I really do want to do, so I will allow myself that access}. To me pinterest isn't so much "hey look at me" centered as the others are...but it will still be limited.
Everyone is made different, some can not be on the internet for days and be okay with it. Heck, my grandma doesn't even own a computer and her life doesn't seem to be affected by it. But there is the other extreme, take my father in law for example, he can be sitting on the couch watching tv, doing work on his laptop and playing on his cell phone...all at the same time. I don't get it. I don't get either one.
Now, the question you want answered...well maybe. My etsy shop....yes it will still be here. I will still sew. I will still work. But I cannot be self indulged in the social media. I just cannot. I do not trust myself not to waste my precious time. I will still check my email regularly and manage my shop in a timely fashion. No, I am not shutting down my social media avenues....unless I am unable to still control myself, then it will come to that.
If leaving the computer off all day means I get more accomplished, then so be it. If I only turn on the computer for a task and then turn it off again so it doesn't call out my name every time I pass by, then I will. No more of this having the computer on all day and being too busy re-checking everything and telling my kids to hold on. That is just silly!
The plan for the blog...I don't know. Currently I have handmade 52 scheduled through the end of August, I will go from there. I might blog here and there, but you can bet that I wont be spending time to link up to all of the fun parties {those take forever--so all of you who link up to mine....THANK YOU!} But other than that...I don't know.
To prove my point, while I was writing this blog I:
Checked 4 of my emails (personal, family, business)Checked my shop statsRead 2 blog posts on someone elses blog from my emailWent on facebook twice (only to see that it hadn't changed from when I was there before I started writing)
Now do you think I need some help?
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