My husband and I seem like we are in a time of change again. Change that I'm still not ready to talk about. Mainly because of lessons we've learned from always screaming from the mountains that we have theses wonderful huge plans....and then nothing would happen. God would change direction in our lives.
We've learned just to keep silent, pray, and trust that HE will do something grand, that HE will provide.
For the entire year of 2011 my husband didn't have a job. And it's not like he wasn't looking. He was filling out application after application. Waiting and wanting. Just wanting something...a job.
We (as most do) were putting constrictions on God, we needed a close job (one car), a job that paid x amount (we had bills to pay, bills that were late, loans that needed repaid, etc).
My husband went back to school last fall. He will graduate with his Bachelors next May. From there he wants to get his masters, and even his doctorate. That puts anxiety in my mind....how many more years of school?
I'm in a time of struggling lately. Am I being completely faithful? Am I trusting enough? What could I be doing differently? What is God's plan? What does He have and want for us? When will this be over?
I tend to close myself off when my life gets too hard for me. I let the ball drop on lots of things I do. Take this blog for one...I haven't blogged, well because I haven't done anything cool to blog about. My little bit of free money ran dry and I haven't renovated anything. Our food budget has shrunk and I haven't had extra money to spend on trying out new recipes (unless you'd like a recipe to clear out your pantry stock and weird combinations).
Thanks for sticking around, thanks for linking up to Handmade 52. I love seeing what you all are making and doing.
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